DAY 2

 Hari ini agak capek daripada kemaren. Hari ini gue sama Xiu spent our time inside the staff room. Kita kerja di bagian sayuran kali ini. Tadi gue sama Xiu tugasnya, mindahin wortel2 dari kardus ke plastik, trus taro yg udh diplastikin ke tempat sayuran. Selama kerja, gue sama Xiu disuruh make white-uncool-hat-that-makes-us-look-like-a-grannie and an apron. I look stupid -_-" and you know what, the cool dude i told you before this post, he saw me. He was smiling and said something.. i forgot i was too busy looking at his eyes XD  anyway, he saw me wearing the uncool hat. And i was like nodding and smile and i... was really embarrassed. The end.

 I'm kidding, it's not the end. The point is, i was really shy whenever i see that dude. And i did great today, me and Xiu finished everything before

 2 o'clock.

 After work, i picked up my lil sis at her kindergarden. On my way there, i saw my poster on the school board. I was totally happy! yippie! oh yea, i saw my poster at Family Mart too. I'm kinda proud

 to see my poster everywhere :) :)

My Nanny looking at the school board.

Oh look! there's 

my poster! xD

introducing, my hyperactive, tomboy, yet adorable..

the one and only..

Raisa Cicelly Nareswari

My lil's sis :)

DAY 1

 Hey blog!!!

 Today i worked at Daiei! from 9 am 'till 2 pm. Only 5 hours and it turns out to be VERY fun!! I thought it would be tiring and hard because i can't speak Japanese really well, but i was wrong. There are many foreigners who works there. Many chinese, actually. Cause i work with Xiu, she understands what the people said.. and for me, i face this kinda situation all the time. Like in JSL, everyone is chinese. So when they talk "!&^%#&!!$~@*%#*!!" i was only s m i l i n g :) b-i-g smile :D Man, it felt like i was in China. But the good thing is, they talked to me in Japanese, and they were nice :)

 So what i did at Daiei.. i organized the consumption, rearrange the places and checked the expiration dates. Kinda complicated at first, cause we need to have a sharp eye, but i think i did fine at the first day.

 Oh yeah! and there's this good looking guy who taught me everything! he's young, i think he still in college.. he smell's good and.. omg he's so cool! xD xD xD (oke lebay, sorry) anyway, he's reeeeeally nice! i think i'm blushing back then. Hope my chick didn't turn red.. hehe aww he's so cool xD

 So i guess, i'll work for 4 more days. Wish me luck guys :)

At Night

 When my parents got home, my dad gave me and my sister dvd's we wanted thanks to his friend. My dad's friend is staying in japan for a couple of days, and he brought us things that we want for my family. He's really nice. And.. the exciting news is.. I FINALLY GOT STEP UP 3D AND THE LAST SONG'S DVD!! YATTAAAAAA!!! So damn happy!

I had a great day :) :) :)

UN

 Hey blog! hari ini gue edit blog gue seharian.. hehe. I finally managed to have 3 columns in my blog!! (y) i know it's not really important, but i've always wanted it since i think 2 columns is just not enough. The gadgets on the sidebar's just seems so full, so i wanted to divided it into 3 parts.. so it would seem equal. It took about 4 hours to do all things (thanks to the gaptek me, lol) but i made it anyway, and actually it looks kinda

 nice. Simple.. but nice. (ok it's totally random) :p

 So.. hari ini ada pengajian gitu di rumah gue. It was kinda boring actually, cause my house was crowded and there was only ONE teenager. It was Saripah. I met her when i went to my 1st Hanami* with kak bilal and friends. But she was quiet and she stayed with her brother so i helped my nanny at the kitchen and went upstairs, mailing my teacher. Well, the point is the pengajian was not really fun.

 Terus after pengajian, i talked to my dad about UN. My mom wants me to take the test, so i need to go back to Indonesia in february. I'll stay there

 for a month. And my mom said that i have to go alone. It's a though decision.. I've never had a flight alone. Maybe i could ask for an escort cause i'm still underage.

 Actually, the flight isn't the problem. UN is the big deal. Gue ketinggalan pelajaran dari kelas 7 and since i live here, I'm more focus to what's in front of me. My Japanese school. I'm trying to increase my grades, my Japanese is not really good so it's still hard for me to have a good grades. When i was in Indonesia, i have to admit i was one of the smart kid.. And since i moved here.. it was like the world went upside down. My score was really bad, and i took it really hard. But this 2nd year i live here, i managed to in

crease my grades.. Not really good but my grades are better, and i am proud of my achievement :)

 Back to UN.. can i actually pass the test? Gue ketinggalan pelajaran selama 3 tahun and my mom expect me to learn in a month and take it like the other kids. Will i make it? that's the real problem. I'm not really positive about this.. the possibility for me to pass is.. 20%. I know i have to think positive.. I've been thinking about thi

s since last year actually, and i take it seriously just now. It's very late and it's sort of my fault too. The point is, I'm trying to fix the situation.. with: studying more often.. maybe. Take intensive courses with my smart friends. Guess it'll help (if I'm not lazy) you see, i have so many good plans and yes, I'm too lazy for it. I hate that part, hehe.

 I hope what i'll do for now will be worth it. And my dad said.. it's not really about passing. My dad doesn't expect me to pass or having a good score.. he want me to have an opportunity like this. Take the test.. the result is another story. And about high school.. Since it depends on my dad's job, there are quite  possibilities that i could go to another country. Even thou i know Indonesia's the best for me.. for now.

...

What will i do with my life??

"Today was kinda chilly, it's getting cold by the minute.

And i think this year's autumn already feels like winter.."

...

 

 Um, talking about life is scary.. so, i'll stop writing. Hope i could answer my own question (y) Oh! I almost forgot! Trial week starts tomorrow! I'm going to work at Daiei for a week! It'll be.. fun! i guess. Hope i could do the job well. So, wish me luck! tell you what happen tomorrow :)

Dictionary

Hanami（花見）: Flower sightseeing every spring in Japan. People use to go the park or somewhere to see the cherry blossom's blooming.

Boring Saturday

Damn.. today is just so boring -___-"

Hari ini bangun tidur sampe sekarang cuma buka http://looklet.com sama.. ya probably that's it. 

 

 Oh ya, hari ini sebenernya gue janjian sama Meg mau ngadain Movie Night di rumah gue. Tadinya mau nonton Twilight. Nah, si Meg kan rencananya mau dateng jam 3, tapi tadi siang habis lunch, bokap bilang katanya gk boleh make iMac (gue sm Meg mau nonton lewat iMac berhubung gk tau cara gunain DVD player di rumah.

DVD playernya di set make bhs jepang dan kebetulan gk ada yg ngerti ya.. jd satu2nya cara nonton DVD di iMac/laptop. Sedih ya, 

i know) anyways, bokap gue bilang iMac nya mau dipake. Sumpah ngeselin banget. Yauda gue telpon Meg bilang hari ini di cancel. Dan tau gak? habis gue telpon Meg, bokap bilang "vin, papa mau pergi jam 3, laptopnya boleh dipake deh" !@#$%^&*(*&^%$#&*!!! AAAAARRRGH! kesel! kesel! giliran udah di telpon aja baru ngomong. And that's not it! beberapa jam setelah gue keluar kamar (gue ngambek ngurung diri di kamar. Anak kecil bgt ya? -___-) 

pokoknya habis gue keluar kamar.. gue liat bokap gue ngorok di kamarnya (pintu kamarnya kebuka) MasyaAllah.. ngeselin!!!!

 Oh ya, gue gk bisa nlvn Meg jg kalo kepepet gini kan. Jd gue ol fb aja.. 

trus tiduran.. liat laptop lagi.. tiduran lagi. Bener2 bete. Trus akhirnya gue dapet cara ngilangin kebetean gue. Gue foto2 narsis2 dikit lah. To kill the time, hehe. Yauda kan gue foto2 tuh.. and actually it's not really bad. Trus gue edit dikit.. hmm ya.. so, hari ini turns out gue jadi kreativ.. karena bosen.

 Oh.. hampir lupa! Akhir2 ini gue sadar kalo gue bener2 punya passion sama Art. Gue nemu web buat mix and match baju.. namanya Looklet. Nah, kita bisa bikin looks. Mix & match baju trus hasil karya kita bisa di like users lainnya. Hmm lumayan asik buat yg suka fashion :)

 I'm trying to gaining my friends. And i think if we make a lots of good looks, people will start noticing and friends will increase. Hmm i think that's how the web works. 

What pissed me off..

 Hey bloggers! isn't this a nice date? 20102010 :) Have you got anything special today?

 I had a wonderful day, but there's a thing that pissed me off thou.

 So, hari ini kita pulangnya rada cepet berhubung sabtu depan Bunkasai. Kita bunkabu (文化部) harus nyiapin macem2, dekorasi, majangin prakarya anak2, dll. Sibuk bgt. Dan karena gue Art Club, gue harus pulang jam 4.30 hari ini. Sementara undobu (運動部) dan org yg gk ikut club pulangnya jam stgah 2 tadi.

 Pas di club, kita kedatengan tamu. Alumni Koyo J.H.S angkatan ke 17. Udh 21 tahun.. gue kenalan sama dia pas hari sabtu kemaren. Sabtu kemaren ada Art Capsule di river mall, dia sempet dateng dan kita ngobrol dikit. Dia jg kenalan sm Saori, Xiu, dll. Semenjak ketemu itu, dia sering smsan sama Saori. Hari ini Saori cerita kalo dia males smsan sama senpai itu. Katanya sms nya gk penting.

 Balik ke club. Pas dia dateng Saori lgsg balik badan. Pas senpai itu nyamperin Saori, Saori basa basi gitu. Trus mereka ngobrol lagi. Gue konsen sama gambar gue (sensei bilang kita harus nyelesain gambar yg mau dipajang buat bunkasai hari ini, jd gue rada sibuk sendiri, hehe) Nah trus habis senpai itu ke tempatnya sensei. Saori bilang something yg bikin gue rada kaget. Yaitu.. "Udah kuduga dia sakit." Gue tanya, "sakit gimana?" Dijawab "Keterbelakangan." Gue langsung diem. Senpai itu keliatan normal aja.. emang rada aneh cara dia ngajak kita ngomong.. tapi gue bener2 kaget pas Saori bilang itu. Pas gue tanya lagi "tau darimana kalo dia keterbelakangan?" Saori bilang "dia bilang "'aku keterbelakangan"' barusan."

 Yg bikin gue pissed bgt itu.. Maya. Used-to-be-best-friend in 7th grade. Dia berubah bgt semenjak semester 2. Dia jadi gaul.. tapi gaul yg resek nyebelin gitu. Dan perbuatan dia ke senpai hari ini bener2 bikin gue kesel. Maya masuk kelas, trus dia ngeliat senpai itu. Kayaknya dia udh tau kalo senpai itu berpenyakit. Maya malah ngeledekin.

M: "eh senpai cantik ya mukanya, kayak AKB"

S: "gk mungkin laah"

M: "iya cantik bgt! coba ikut audition pasti langsung keterima"

S: "haha gk mungkin.. blablablabla"

gue gk sanggup nulisnya lagi. Maya ngeledekin. Senpai ini bahkan gk nyadar kalo lagi diledekin. Satu kelas ketawa.. ok, seriously. PANTES GAK SIH DIA JADI BAHAN TERTAWAAN? GAK KAN? ah come on man.. gk sopan bgt serius. Org berpenyakit itu harus diperlakukan sama. Yg adil. Bukan kayak gini! Mana gk ada yg ngingetin lagi. Gue cuma bisa diem soalnya gue gk mau nyari masalah sm Maya. Tp serius.. gue lebay gk sih kayak gini? ada gk yg ngerasa kayak gue? kasian tau senpai nya digituin. Maya keterlaluan. Diketawain satu kelas.. Maya brengsek bgt itu. Mau ngelucu mending cari bahan lawakan lain, apa kek.. jangan senpai itu. Hhh.. kesel bgt -_-

 Entah apa karena mereka gk punya agama jd kayak gitu, atau karena gk pernah diajarin yg mana yg bener yg mana yg salah, gue gk ngerti. Setau gue, sekolah jepang ini ngajarin untuk treat semuanya dgn adil. Tp kenapa muridnya gitu? heran gue.

Hmm.. enough about this, anyway.. the good news:

Kelas gue menang padus!!!!! yay us 1 kumi! kita bakal tampil pas bunkasai nanti :D

Dictionary

Bunkabu: club yg berhubungan dgn Art

Undoubu: club yg berhubungan sm sports

Being a foreigners..

 Heeeey!! capek bgt nih hari ini. So, pagi ini ada latihan padus, jadi berangkatnya harus lebih cepet. Menjelang bunkasai* kita pada sibuk semua. Latihan nyanyi ada tiap pagi, dan latihannya cukup nguras energi.. hehe. Moga2 kelas gue bisa tampil deh tahun ini. Tahun lalu sempet kalah sama kelasnya guru music gue -_-

 Anyway, hari ini ada kelas JSL di Ikuta j.h.s (sekolah kedua gue di Jepang. Not actually my school sih, ini lebih kayak juku* gitu) Jadi tadi pas ditengah-tengah pelajaran ke-6 gue langsung izin pulang.. gk pulang ke rumah tapi langsung ke station, terus pergi ke Motomachi. 

 Nah, di Motomachi ini ada sekolah gue yg kedua itu, Ikuta j.h.s. Disini ada kelas JSL--kelas untuk murid foreigners. Kelasnya 1 stgah jam untuk ngebantu mahamin pelajaran di sekolah public. Rata2 yg orang asing yg ikut kelas ini orang china. Secara di Motomachi (China town) dan kalo gue perhatiin, emang orang china lah orang yg hard worker.. so no wonder mereka kesini. Orang China menurut gue itu haus ilmu.. dan gigih bgt, makanya banyak yg pinter. Gue salut sama mereka.

 Oh ya, di kelas JSL hari ini, Cho temen china gue ngasih tau ke Kimura Sensei (guru bhs jepang di kls JSL) ttg nilai midtest dia. OK, so.. kita para foreigners nilainya gk sebagus nilai anak jepang (iyalah) Disini.. kita dapet 20 (Dari 100) aja udah syukur alhamdulillah.. pinter2nya kita paling dapet 30an lah. Nah.. kalo si Cho.. dia bhs jepang dapet 51!!! IPS 46! Science 78!! aaaaah gilaaaaa. Nilai bhs jepang dia diatas 50.. genius bgt! bukan gimana tapi dia baru 1 stgah tahun tinggal dsini.. gue aja udh 2 tahun gk pernah dapet nilai 50 kalo bhs jepang. Gue selalu hilang semangat kalo tau hasil ulangannya Cho, wk -_-" Trus gue jg tanya lagi ke Omori (anak china lainnya disitu. Dia baru pindah beberapa bulan yg lalu malah dan bhs jepang dia bahkan.. let's say gk sebagus Cho. Soalnya di kelas dia ngomongnya bhs china terus, gk ngerti gue dia ngomong apa.) Si omori dapet 31 pas test japanese. Lama2 gue bingung, ini sekolah gue emang ngasih soalnya yg susah apa emang ni anak china pada pinter semua? gue rasa dua2nya bener. Sekolah emg bisa dibilang sekolah gue sekolah bagus.. isinya anak pinter semua, makanya pr nya banyak dan soal ujiannya susah2 -___-" Dan.. gue ngerasa paling bego dikalangan anak pinter. Ini yg gue rasain selama smp di Jepang. Sucks, yeah. Tp gue yakin kalo bhs jepang gue udh fasih, nilai gue bakal bagus, di atas rata2 Insya Allah. So,, gue gk boleh nyerah skrg.

 Pulangnya gue bareng sama Cho. Karena dia rumahnya di Sumiyoshi, searah sm gue.. jadi barengan. Keluar dari Ikuta j.h.s, di kereta, dan sampe sumiyoshi kita ngomongin ttg 1 hal. S E K O L A H. Gue tanya ke dia, gimana caranya supaya bisa dapet nilai tinggi. Dan ternyata jawaban dia "aku ikut juku" Dia bilang dia mau SMA di jepang jg, jadi mau gk mau dia harus belajar mati2an supaya dia bisa masuk SMA bagus disini. Gue rasa she's staying in Japan.

 Cho bilang ada juku yg bagus, namanya ST. Itu juku #1 di.. kobe(?) dan katanya anak2 yg ikut juku disitu rata2 pada masuk ke Kobe University. Wow. Cho gk berhasil masuk situ, jadi dia masuk ke juku #2 terbagus di Kobe. Gila. Udh gitu dia jukunya gk private. Melainkan sekelas sama Japanese lain. That means.. it's very very hard. Sensei di juku itu pasti ngajarin mereka pake bhs jepang yg susah (formal) Sementara kosakata Cho belum begitu banyak. Dan pasti dia di treat kayak anak jepang biasa. Gue bener2 salut dia bahkan inisiatif ikut juku kayak gitu.

 Beberapa menit kemudian, setelah nyampe di Sumiyoshi, gue say goodbye trus naik Rokko Liner (kereta yg kearah pulau gue). Disini gue ketemu kak Ai (Yamano Ai. Alumni sekolah gue half indonesia) kita ngobrol2 gitu. Gue undang dia ke bunkasai di sekolah gue. Kebetulan dia dulu leader di club gue (Art club) jadi pasti tertarik buat ngeliat karya penerus Art club :P Oh ya, kita ngomong pake bhs indonesia. Hihi lucu denger dia ngomong bhs indonesia. Bhs indonesianya gk lancar bgt sih tapi lumayan ngerti gitu jadi asik :D

 Trus pas nyampe di Rokko Center (tempat tinggal gue) gue ketemu anak CA (canadian academy) CA itu satu2nya international school yg ada di Rokko Island. Tadinya gue mau masuk situ, tapi dikarekan biayanya.. zzz bgt dan kalo misalnya masuk situ japanese gue gk bakal kepake, akhirnya gue masuk public school. Tp kayaknya enaknya international school isinya foreigners dari berbagai macam negara, jadi kita semua ngerasain hal yg sama. Rasanya tinggal di negeri orang, mereka semua pasti tau. Dan gk ada kendala bahasa. They all speak english. Well, public school it tougher, and my mom said that it's good for me cause it'll make me strong. True. Yet it's painful sometimes.

 Ok segitu dulu aja deh, hehehe. Kapan2 gue cerita lagi. Gue bener2 capek hari ini. There's still one more day to go. Haah ganbaree atashi! yosh, goodnight everyone. Hope you had a nice day :)

* juku（塾）: Kayak primagama gitu. Ngebahas pelajaran sekolah biar lebih ngerti.

* bunkasai（文化祭）: Art Festival (ada tiap semester ke-2 pas musim gugur di sekolah jepang)

Sometimes Life Is Unfair.

 Hey blooog! i was supposed to post this like days before, but i didn't have much time, so... I'm gonna write it now anyway.

 I wanna tell you about what happened on 10.10.10 at 10 o'clock. So, That day.. i went to Kobe Plaza. There's this ceremony went on. Actually, i lost my elementary school's best friend this summer. It was really really sad. We spent everything together. Her name is Kamei Saaya. She's the smartest Japanese kid i've ever met in my life. She passed away because she got sick. It was really unfair you know.. The good people always died. My mom said that some people gone for good. To inspired us. But i always thought that it's UNFAIR. What i get is, God always takes away what we loved the most. Well, i guess that's how it goes, huh? It's always been like that and non of us can change it.

In this ceremony, i was kinda surprised by the fact that Saaya's mom still remember me. I thought that she forgot. The last time i saw her is when i was in the 1st semester of 7th grade (quite a long time ago) and we only met once. That day, when i went there, me and most of the students in my school took a sit in the room when the ceremony held. After i put a flower on the desk and about to take my sit, her mom cried while greets the guests. And when i walked by, she said "Vina chan arigatou" and her tears fell out. I didn't say anything tho, i didn't even dare to see her face, cause i know, if i saw her i will cry like shit. But i cried in the end anyway -_-"

 Saaya's dad gave a speech about the moment when Saaya's got the pain and the moment when she's about to.. yeah. It was very sad, everyone actually cried back there.

 Oh yea, her dad told us that when they look at Saaya's backpack, they found her summer break's hw. And there was her english hw. A short essay about self introduction. She wrote that she wants to be a doctor.. to help people. But she didn't make it. It's really disappointing because i know that, a person like her.. a person like Saaya could actually BE one! She's smart and she got everything. Of all the people i just don't get it WHY did god take her away? :(

 So yeah.. 10.10.10 full with tears.

Saaya chan, if you could hear me.. we miss you so much. I hope you're alright. See you in heaven :')